Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Back!


My last post was about a guy  in my class. I completely forgot about him! I don't even remember his face or his name now.Funny what time does.

I haven't read much this year. I haven't watched that many movies either. I'm watching TV shows though. A lot of them. More than once. For no reason. I have also discovered the delights of YouTube. A little late, I know.

I must be getting old. Lately, there is this constant fear in my head that my days have mysteriously sped up. I think I have only 12 hours a day. I really think all the clocks around me are running twice as fast. Seriously. I'm always saying "I wish there was more time" (No, I'm not dying!!) It's just that there are a lot of things I want to do and there isn't enough time! Somehow I am only able to manage one thing a day. If I start reading a book then that is all for that day. Sometimes it's an episode (or a season) of a sitcom, sometimes a doodle or sometimes there is nothing substantial done on that day. My days are rolling by and I seem to have no control over it whatsoever. I am just waiting for that one day that would outshine this dank, dark and confused phase of my life and that none of this would matter in retrospect. Waiting.

On a happier note, I have started drawing again and it feels sooooo good! No, I don't have a lot of suppressed emotion that needs to be expressed right away or anything, I needed to pick up a pencil and start sketching just to prove to myself that I still can. I'm not very good at it but it is one of the things I loved as a kid and still do. As a hobby, it is much more gratifying than say, watching a movie. I WILL rave more about this in another post.